We can go both ways.
This picture pretty much sums up my Christmas.
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| Only boy I can be myself with. Whether I’m bundled up head-to-toe and covered in snow or in my nicest outfit. There’s no one like him, and I don’t ever wanna be without him. |
Why do I always get the crazies?
So let’s review.
You telling me that you talk to spirits and see demons. Creepy, but everybody’s got their shit.
You telling me that if your girlfriend ever cheated on you, you’d cut her to pieces, in dead-serious tone…sent a few warning bells off in my head, but I’ve heard worse.
You then showed up at my friend’s house as if you were right around the corner, and said that you liked to drive by people’s houses to see if they were home at night. I told myself I wouldn’t let you see where I lived, but okay…
Then your aunt told me that not long ago you tried to stab your mum with a pen. More warning bells.
Adam once again, said that I should try and distance myself from you. Which I did. Nothing personal, but I know a lot of crazy guys, and yeah, I could rack up some notches on the old count, but I don’t honestly want to fuck you. Honestly, I’m starting to be scared by you. Because this isn’t drug crazy, or bi-polar crazy, this is full bore STAB FRENZY crazy, Fatal Attraction style.
So I ignore your texts, ignore your phone messages, avoid seeing you at places and hope you aren’t following me around town. It works for a few months. I thought you moved on.
Then you start leaving messages on my facebook. Weird messages.
And then you come find me at the library and kiss me.
What more do I have to do? I physically pushed you off and hopped in my car and drove away.
I hope that’s the end of it, I really do.
I’m actually a little afraid.
You telling me that you talk to spirits and see demons. Creepy, but everybody’s got their shit.
You telling me that if your girlfriend ever cheated on you, you’d cut her to pieces, in dead-serious tone…sent a few warning bells off in my head, but I’ve heard worse.
You then showed up at my friend’s house as if you were right around the corner, and said that you liked to drive by people’s houses to see if they were home at night. I told myself I wouldn’t let you see where I lived, but okay…
Then your aunt told me that not long ago you tried to stab your mum with a pen. More warning bells.
Adam once again, said that I should try and distance myself from you. Which I did. Nothing personal, but I know a lot of crazy guys, and yeah, I could rack up some notches on the old count, but I don’t honestly want to fuck you. Honestly, I’m starting to be scared by you. Because this isn’t drug crazy, or bi-polar crazy, this is full bore STAB FRENZY crazy, Fatal Attraction style.
So I ignore your texts, ignore your phone messages, avoid seeing you at places and hope you aren’t following me around town. It works for a few months. I thought you moved on.
Then you start leaving messages on my facebook. Weird messages.
And then you come find me at the library and kiss me.
What more do I have to do? I physically pushed you off and hopped in my car and drove away.
I hope that’s the end of it, I really do.
I’m actually a little afraid.
I am enjoying the fuck out of having my boyfriend here with me.
Long distance relationships are so hard but when I’m with him oh my god I can’t even begin.
I am so happy.
So
Damn
Happy
Damn
Happy
It’s so hard to express it in words.
5 people who mean a lot to me (in no order whatsoever):
1) Sammy Riccio
2) Allie Grimes
3) Joe Murphy
4) Natalie Kuloweic
5) My sister
Say it! Get it off your chest now!
> I really fucking like you.
>> You need to step the fuck up, before she gets old enough to see what a jack ass you are.
>>> I’m gay.
>>>> Our friendship and our physical relationship have no correlation whatsoever.
>>>>> I miss you. I only want you. I just want to know that you want me too.
>>>>>> I love you, and you have no idea. I wish you knew.
>>>>>>> I am so fucking happy now that you’re gone. SO happy.
>>>>>>>> You are fucking adorable. Be mine.
>> You need to step the fuck up, before she gets old enough to see what a jack ass you are.
>>> I’m gay.
>>>> Our friendship and our physical relationship have no correlation whatsoever.
>>>>> I miss you. I only want you. I just want to know that you want me too.
>>>>>> I love you, and you have no idea. I wish you knew.
>>>>>>> I am so fucking happy now that you’re gone. SO happy.
>>>>>>>> You are fucking adorable. Be mine.
I like you a lot, I really do.
But I somewhat want to hold myself back a little because I don’t know if you feel the same way I feel about you . I don’t want to make myself look like a fool.
My biggest insecurity?
My skin - colour, scars, acne. You don’t know how jealous I get when I see girls with clear complexions or even just one tiny pimple at the least. This might sound a bit mellow-dramatic to some of you who don’t understand, but it’s EXTREMELY hard for me to make full eye contact…
My God, where are my colouring pencils?
Beautiful 24 pack of Crayolas I need you.
When I can’t sleep I draw, and seeing as I finished drawing Adrian and I am onto the colouring stages, I need to colour, omg. :(
When I can’t sleep I draw, and seeing as I finished drawing Adrian and I am onto the colouring stages, I need to colour, omg. :(
10 things I want to say to ten different people right now:
1) Yes, I miss you. And I suppose that I do still care about you. But, quite obviously, it’s time to move on. so, as cliche as it sounds, goodbye.
2) Lately, you’re all that’s been on my mind. I would just love to tell you that I like you and hear it back. I want to be your girlfriend. I want to hold your hand and kiss you and be yours. I really really like you.
3) I miss you so much, but i’m not sure that you value this friendship as much as I do anymore.
4) You are my best friend, and I couldn’t ask for anything better. You make me laugh, you’re always there for me, and somehow you make my days a little brighter when they seem awfully dark. Thank you for always being there. I love you.
5) What happened between us probably needed to happen, but I really miss you. Even though things have changed, I still love you. And I still think about you all the time. I’ll always be here for you. I pinky promised.
6) You make me feel like a disappointment. Do you not see how hard I work to please you and make you proud? Yet, everyday, you make me feel like i’m not good enough.
7) I miss you so much. You used to be my best friend and now we barely talk. We used to go out for coffee at least once a week and i’d tell you everything. I trusted and loved you more than anyone; not just because you are family, but because I admire, respect, and enjoy being around you. But, ever since you got into a relationship, I hardly get to hang out with you, and whenever I do, he’s there too. I like him a lot, don’t get me wrong, he’s practically a brother at this point, however, I really miss one on one time with my sister.
8) You piss me off more than I can even handle.
9) I’m really glad that we’ve become closer this year. I love you lots and lots.
10) I saved you for last because I truly don’t know what I could say to do you justice. As a guy you might find this cheesy, but to be truthful, you are the best friend a girl could ever ask for. You’re mature and smart and hilarious and never fail to support me. You have hugged and listened to me while I cry, you have made me laugh, you have made memories with me, you have helped me, you have always been there for me; you have been my best friend. Thank you for that. I love you so much.
2) Lately, you’re all that’s been on my mind. I would just love to tell you that I like you and hear it back. I want to be your girlfriend. I want to hold your hand and kiss you and be yours. I really really like you.
3) I miss you so much, but i’m not sure that you value this friendship as much as I do anymore.
4) You are my best friend, and I couldn’t ask for anything better. You make me laugh, you’re always there for me, and somehow you make my days a little brighter when they seem awfully dark. Thank you for always being there. I love you.
5) What happened between us probably needed to happen, but I really miss you. Even though things have changed, I still love you. And I still think about you all the time. I’ll always be here for you. I pinky promised.
6) You make me feel like a disappointment. Do you not see how hard I work to please you and make you proud? Yet, everyday, you make me feel like i’m not good enough.
7) I miss you so much. You used to be my best friend and now we barely talk. We used to go out for coffee at least once a week and i’d tell you everything. I trusted and loved you more than anyone; not just because you are family, but because I admire, respect, and enjoy being around you. But, ever since you got into a relationship, I hardly get to hang out with you, and whenever I do, he’s there too. I like him a lot, don’t get me wrong, he’s practically a brother at this point, however, I really miss one on one time with my sister.
8) You piss me off more than I can even handle.
9) I’m really glad that we’ve become closer this year. I love you lots and lots.
10) I saved you for last because I truly don’t know what I could say to do you justice. As a guy you might find this cheesy, but to be truthful, you are the best friend a girl could ever ask for. You’re mature and smart and hilarious and never fail to support me. You have hugged and listened to me while I cry, you have made me laugh, you have made memories with me, you have helped me, you have always been there for me; you have been my best friend. Thank you for that. I love you so much.
Nine things about myself:
1) I love diners. A lot.
2) I love horses and horseback riding. Riding is the only time I feel completely free, happy, and proud.
3) Christmas is my favourite holiday and I love going to New York City during the Christmas season.
4) I love hoodies. Oversized hoodies that is.
5) I am obsessed with movies. Can’t get enough of them.
6) I want to travel the world.
7) Music is one of my favorite things in the world. Iron & Wine, Mumford and Sons, Fleet Foxes, and Marshall Mathers are my favourites, but I listen to a lot of different stuff.
8) I love food. I love trying new foods and really like to eat. Cookie dough is all I eat when i’m sad. And pancakes are my favorite midnight snack.
9) I really like being out late at night, on the road or at a diner.
2) I love horses and horseback riding. Riding is the only time I feel completely free, happy, and proud.
3) Christmas is my favourite holiday and I love going to New York City during the Christmas season.
4) I love hoodies. Oversized hoodies that is.
5) I am obsessed with movies. Can’t get enough of them.
6) I want to travel the world.
7) Music is one of my favorite things in the world. Iron & Wine, Mumford and Sons, Fleet Foxes, and Marshall Mathers are my favourites, but I listen to a lot of different stuff.
8) I love food. I love trying new foods and really like to eat. Cookie dough is all I eat when i’m sad. And pancakes are my favorite midnight snack.
9) I really like being out late at night, on the road or at a diner.
Fears of liking someone:
- That someone else will randomly sweep them off their feet & leave you with nothing, except watching them enjoy each others company.
- That one day, they’ll wake up & feel differently about you.
As weird as it sounds, one of my favorite places to be is the airport. As soon as I step into the revolving doors with my luggage in hand, it makes me so happy. I love that feeling of knowing you’re going to get away from the place you know that bombards you with drama and bullshit. It just gives you the reassuring feeling of having a temporary enjoyment miles away from what you’re used to. It takes you away from the usual for a bit. I just can’t explain the feeling of airports. <3
If you could kindly take the time to answer these 3 questions, that would be great! :-)
1. What is the wildest thing you’ve ever imagined?
2. What’s on your bucket list?
3. What are the major decisions in life that you have made?
2. What’s on your bucket list?
3. What are the major decisions in life that you have made?
Ah, Robert Downey Jr’s Holmes-on-a-Bad-Day, you are my spirit animal forever and always.
We can start a club for people who:-
don’t leave the house for days
live in ratty dressing gowns
are vague on dates
abuse some sort of substance
are wary of natural light
squander their own brilliance
have terrible comebacks
Hot guy from Chemistry is trying to talk to me on Facebook chat.
I feel like telling him to go find the ugly girl he picked over me...
Ten of my flaws/imperfections:
1. I hate the way I look in the mirror, especially with my clothes off.
2. I worry about everything too much. Past, present, future.
3. And yet, ironically, I never think or plan ahead as to what I’m going to do next.
4. After I do something wrong because of that, I beat myself up over it.
5. I tend to be overprotective in a relationship. Not to the point of not letting my guy do anything or talk to anybody, but it manifests as jealousy. But it’s just because I’m insecure about losing them.
6. I try to phrase things in a way where it doesn’t hurt somebody’s feelings, sometimes too much.
7. I flirt, but I’m too insecure to really make the first move more often than not.
8. I get really depressed a lot.
9. I get the “you’re irresponsible” talk a lot, especially with money, and I’m trying to do better.
10. I’m afraid of my temper.
2. I worry about everything too much. Past, present, future.
3. And yet, ironically, I never think or plan ahead as to what I’m going to do next.
4. After I do something wrong because of that, I beat myself up over it.
5. I tend to be overprotective in a relationship. Not to the point of not letting my guy do anything or talk to anybody, but it manifests as jealousy. But it’s just because I’m insecure about losing them.
6. I try to phrase things in a way where it doesn’t hurt somebody’s feelings, sometimes too much.
7. I flirt, but I’m too insecure to really make the first move more often than not.
8. I get really depressed a lot.
9. I get the “you’re irresponsible” talk a lot, especially with money, and I’m trying to do better.
10. I’m afraid of my temper.
Have you ever laughed so hard that no sound comes out and you sit there clapping your hands like a retarded seal?
I got made fun of because I did this.
Ten things I do best at:
1. Draw.
2. Read a book in record time.
3. Quote historical facts.
4. Comic book trivia.
5. Band trivia.
6. Perform oral sex. ;)
7. Make an omelette.
8. Make people laugh.
9. Rescue princesses, defeat bosses, save kingdoms.
10. …Um. *shrug?*
2. Read a book in record time.
3. Quote historical facts.
4. Comic book trivia.
5. Band trivia.
6. Perform oral sex. ;)
7. Make an omelette.
8. Make people laugh.
9. Rescue princesses, defeat bosses, save kingdoms.
10. …Um. *shrug?*
What I want for Christmas:
- No rock bottom depression just ‘cause it’s the holidays.
- Not to be made to feel like a fuck up when I visit my parents, especially in comparison to Erica. Fuck your nursing degree, srsly.
- New shoes.
- Reading material.
- Alcoholic consumption (RED WINE!).
- Friends to be with.
- A kiss from a special guy.
- To do some good for somebody, for reals. Donate food, or gifts. I know some places.
Phosphorescent — Can I sleep in Your Arms
It’s so cold lyin’ here all alone
And I have no hold to hold on you
And, I assure you, I’ll do you no wrong
And I have no hold to hold on you
And, I assure you, I’ll do you no wrong
I wrote a letter to myself which I am to read everytime I feel like crap. I suggest you do it too. It's surprisingly helpful.
Dear Claire,
You’re countries away from all your closest friends and family. The one that was supposed to be there for you through everything changed their mind and left you completely alone. And despite the time that’s passed, your heart is still far from healed. Like every teenage girl in this planet, you’re fighting the endless battle with self-esteem, peer pressure, future plans, and the whole world.
But you have food in the fridge. You have your own room and you sleep in a bed with a pillow and a blanket. You probably have some money in your purse. If not, you probably spent it on more food and shopping. You have both arms and legs. You have relatively good eyesight. Relatively good skin. You’re not exactly pretty, but you’re not butt-ugly. You’ve had your fair share of travels. You come from a dysfunctional (but still good and supportive) family. You’ve had the privilege of education. You are loved by your family and your best friends, and if you killed yourself, you might just drive them crazy enough to kill themselves too.
Whatever it is you’re crying about, just please. Stop your goddamn bitching.
Love, Claire.
P.S. Go treat yourself to a chocolate bar. You’re not that fat.
You’re countries away from all your closest friends and family. The one that was supposed to be there for you through everything changed their mind and left you completely alone. And despite the time that’s passed, your heart is still far from healed. Like every teenage girl in this planet, you’re fighting the endless battle with self-esteem, peer pressure, future plans, and the whole world.
But you have food in the fridge. You have your own room and you sleep in a bed with a pillow and a blanket. You probably have some money in your purse. If not, you probably spent it on more food and shopping. You have both arms and legs. You have relatively good eyesight. Relatively good skin. You’re not exactly pretty, but you’re not butt-ugly. You’ve had your fair share of travels. You come from a dysfunctional (but still good and supportive) family. You’ve had the privilege of education. You are loved by your family and your best friends, and if you killed yourself, you might just drive them crazy enough to kill themselves too.
Whatever it is you’re crying about, just please. Stop your goddamn bitching.
Love, Claire.
P.S. Go treat yourself to a chocolate bar. You’re not that fat.
Ten items I can’t go a day without:
1. Shirt (by court order).
2. Jeans (by court order).
3. Underwear (by court order.)
4. Car keys.
5. Purse.
6. Phone.
7. Hoodie.
8. Coffee in the morning.
9. Pepsi/Dr. Pepper sometime later.
10. Music.
2. Jeans (by court order).
3. Underwear (by court order.)
4. Car keys.
5. Purse.
6. Phone.
7. Hoodie.
8. Coffee in the morning.
9. Pepsi/Dr. Pepper sometime later.
10. Music.
Sometimes being a sister is better than being a superhero.
Hey sis! Today’s your special day. Happy Happy 7th Birthday! I love you to death. Even though you make me mad to the bone. You may not see it now, but I want you to know that I would do anything for you; anything for this family. I wish you all the best in the world. I know you’re gonna grow up to be a great woman and all the guys will go “gaga” over you (it’s in the blood ;) ).But remember to always keep your feet on the ground. I'm always here for you, now, tomorrow, and for the rest of my life. We’re sisters, and I’ll love you til the end. <3
Here’s to every starry-eyed lover and every beautiful romance. Here’s to the ones who fear being alone and those who have lost hope. Here’s to the dreamers and the outcasts. Here’s to life and living it to your fullest. But most of all, here’s to you. Don’t be afraid to take love by the hand. Speak from your heart and love with everything in you.
Ten songs I can’t stop listening to:
1. Nirvana - All Apologies.
2. Metallica - Fade to Black.
3. MCR - Three Chapters for Sweet Revenge.
4. Basket Case - Green Day
5. Stone Sour - Bother.
6. Gin Blossoms - Til I Hear It From You.
7. Third Eye Blind - Red Star Rising.
8. AFI - Miseria Cantare.
9. Alice In Chains - Would?
10. Verve Pipe - Freshmen.
2. Metallica - Fade to Black.
3. MCR - Three Chapters for Sweet Revenge.
4. Basket Case - Green Day
5. Stone Sour - Bother.
6. Gin Blossoms - Til I Hear It From You.
7. Third Eye Blind - Red Star Rising.
8. AFI - Miseria Cantare.
9. Alice In Chains - Would?
10. Verve Pipe - Freshmen.
I am just in the biggest Christmasy wintery mood right now.
Seriously.
Christmas songs in my head and my computer.
Ground is covered in snow.
Hot chocolate and romantic comedies.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS, BRO!
Christmas songs in my head and my computer.
Ground is covered in snow.
Hot chocolate and romantic comedies.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS, BRO!
I was the original…but now i’m unoriginal.
That’s me...
...because for two weeks, my university is having a new big group of exchange students from the U.K. and it caught me so off guard….and yeah so I was in the cafeteria, and I thought I saw a swarm of British kids.
Then I thought ‘pffff, that can’t be.’
Then suddenly one of them pointed and shouted at me, ‘ENGLISH!'
Then I decided to skip class and sit with them, and found out they speak not a word of German, and will be around for 2 weeks.
My point is that i’m happy that there are Britons around again and I don’t stick out as much anymore.
But i’m also slightly bummed that…. I don’t stick out as much anymore.
...because for two weeks, my university is having a new big group of exchange students from the U.K. and it caught me so off guard….and yeah so I was in the cafeteria, and I thought I saw a swarm of British kids.
Then I thought ‘pffff, that can’t be.’
Then suddenly one of them pointed and shouted at me, ‘ENGLISH!'
Then I decided to skip class and sit with them, and found out they speak not a word of German, and will be around for 2 weeks.
My point is that i’m happy that there are Britons around again and I don’t stick out as much anymore.
But i’m also slightly bummed that…. I don’t stick out as much anymore.
Today was undeniably great:
- I didn’t go to class...
- I took a train to Lübeck with Jorma and his friends...
- ...for more shopping!
- Finally got my Forever21 order in the mail...
- (two months too late, but whatever)
- AND I GOT MY A UKULELE IN THE MAIL TOO!
I now own a German ukulele named Hans.
Since I couldn’t bring my old one here to Germany...
It's my Christmas gift to myself!
I love you, Hans. ♥
It's my Christmas gift to myself!
I love you, Hans. ♥
If you wanna walk out, I’ll show you the door.
I’m sorry but I can’t always be the only one trying anymore.
Ten TV shows I miss from my childhood:
1. He-Man.
2. Thundercats.
3. Transformers.
4. GI-Joe.
5. Batman: The Animated Series.
6. X-Men: The Animated Series.
7. Darkwing Duck.
8. Courage the Cowardly Dog.
9. Dragon Ball Z.
10. Angel.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Party of Five, etcetera.
Ten movies I never get tired of watching:
1. Forgetting Sarah Marshall.
2. Blade Runner.
3. Nightmare Before Christmas.
4. Fight Club.
5. The Empire Strikes Back.
6. Talladega Nights: Ballad of Ricky Bobby.
7. Borat.
8. Step Brothers.
9. The Omen (1976)
10. Old School.
The Hangover, Get Him to the Greek, the original Clash of the Titans, and many more…
1. He-Man.
2. Thundercats.
3. Transformers.
4. GI-Joe.
5. Batman: The Animated Series.
6. X-Men: The Animated Series.
7. Darkwing Duck.
8. Courage the Cowardly Dog.
9. Dragon Ball Z.
10. Angel.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Party of Five, etcetera.
Ten movies I never get tired of watching:
1. Forgetting Sarah Marshall.
2. Blade Runner.
3. Nightmare Before Christmas.
4. Fight Club.
5. The Empire Strikes Back.
6. Talladega Nights: Ballad of Ricky Bobby.
7. Borat.
8. Step Brothers.
9. The Omen (1976)
10. Old School.
The Hangover, Get Him to the Greek, the original Clash of the Titans, and many more…
My body isn’t satasfied with the high calorie meal I just had.
To eat more [read: spend more] or not to eat more [read: not to spend more]?
That is the question.
That is the question.
Confession No. 8582
I just want to be tiny and delicate. Everyone wants the curvy girl. Everyone loves the tiny delicate bitch.
Going through the 270 messages in my inbox and deleting a bunch of messages.
I hate getting rid of stuff. Ugh.
Attendance policies for universities are annoying as fuck.
Especially at community universities.
I’m keeping up with all my coursework.
I have all A’s and B’s but it doesn’t matter — if I miss more than 3 classes I lose a letter grade each time. And if I get more than 5 then the professor can drop me from their class. That’s a university wide policy, not just for certain majors or classes.
Fuck you university.
If I’m keeping up all the work and we’re just bullshitting in class why do I have to waste my time in said class?
I’m keeping up with all my coursework.
I have all A’s and B’s but it doesn’t matter — if I miss more than 3 classes I lose a letter grade each time. And if I get more than 5 then the professor can drop me from their class. That’s a university wide policy, not just for certain majors or classes.
Fuck you university.
If I’m keeping up all the work and we’re just bullshitting in class why do I have to waste my time in said class?
Mumford & Sons | Little Lion Man
Tremble for yourself, my man,
You know that you have seen this all before
Tremble Little Lion Man,
You’ll never settle any of your scores
Your grace is wasted in your face,
Your boldness stands alone among the wreck
Now learn from your mother or else spend your days Biting your own neck
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn’t I, my dear?
I love this song [=
You know that you have seen this all before
Tremble Little Lion Man,
You’ll never settle any of your scores
Your grace is wasted in your face,
Your boldness stands alone among the wreck
Now learn from your mother or else spend your days Biting your own neck
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn’t I, my dear?
I love this song [=
1) What’s your name? Claire
2) How old are you? 21
3) Where are you from? Are you living there right now? I'm from England but i'm in Germany at the moment.
4) Is it cold where you are? Fucking freezing!
5) What’s the time? 14.13
6) What are you wearing? Jeans, tee, cardigan and scarf.
7) What was the last thing you listened to? Danger Days album <3
8) What was the last thing you ate? Some weird German sweets.
9) Do YOU think you have an accent? Not at all.
2) How old are you? 21
3) Where are you from? Are you living there right now? I'm from England but i'm in Germany at the moment.
4) Is it cold where you are? Fucking freezing!
5) What’s the time? 14.13
6) What are you wearing? Jeans, tee, cardigan and scarf.
7) What was the last thing you listened to? Danger Days album <3
8) What was the last thing you ate? Some weird German sweets.
9) Do YOU think you have an accent? Not at all.
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Hello, my name is Mr Tickles and I have stolen Tom's laptop. I don’t live in this house, I just walk through the cat flap like I own the place and steal the other cats food which forces Tom to give me my own bowl of yummy grub so his stupid cats don’t go hungry. |
Satisfaction.
....is hard to reach, don't even aim for it. I hate it when people aim for IT to satisfy someone when they can't even satisfy themselves. Uhmm.
Today me and my mum had an arguement..
Me: Mum
Mum: Yes?
Me: I need to tell you something very important.
Mum: What?
Me: Okay, well, I..
Mum: ..Well, what is it?!
Me: I just want to tell you..
Mum: Claire, are you okay?
Me: ..that I love you!!
Mum: Oh really? Well guess what??!
Me: What?
Mum: I love you more than what you think I do.
Me: Well I love you more than you can imagine!
Mum: I love you forever and ever.
Me: I love you with all of my heart, plus 1!
Mum: Well I love you beyond the deepest of my heart, the entire universe, and for infinity!!
Me: ..That’s alot mum, well I love you, exactly what you said plus eternity.
Mum: Okay, well ETERNITY plus a bajillion million. And enternity in all caps!
Me: I love you MUM!! <3
..about who loves who more. [:
Mum: Yes?
Me: I need to tell you something very important.
Mum: What?
Me: Okay, well, I..
Mum: ..Well, what is it?!
Me: I just want to tell you..
Mum: Claire, are you okay?
Me: ..that I love you!!
Mum: Oh really? Well guess what??!
Me: What?
Mum: I love you more than what you think I do.
Me: Well I love you more than you can imagine!
Mum: I love you forever and ever.
Me: I love you with all of my heart, plus 1!
Mum: Well I love you beyond the deepest of my heart, the entire universe, and for infinity!!
Me: ..That’s alot mum, well I love you, exactly what you said plus eternity.
Mum: Okay, well ETERNITY plus a bajillion million. And enternity in all caps!
Me: I love you MUM!! <3
..about who loves who more. [:
“sure.”
Today, my ex-boyfriend asked me to fill up his water bottle while I went to fill up mine. I can only just remember saying “Sure.” It’s a vague recollection: like everything else involving him, this response gets stacked under agendas, priorities and my five senses – and a glassy fog encircles it, burying it once and for all. I don’t even remember what staircase I took to get to the water fountain. I was swallowed by fog.Under the fog lies, untouched, over a thousand days worth of memories, cherished by only the most inner depths of the chambers of my heart. But today, I asked myself if I was ready to finally allow real feelings to surface, slowly but surely. The answer I got; faint yet undeniable, was “Sure.”
It hurts. Plain and simple. While so much more is complex, this much I know for sure.
To go back to the beginning, in my first year of uni, I was put in a class with no friends. Instantly, though, his role as the class clown struck me as hilarious, as he and I would joke around all the time. We were never really friends. I don’t know how it worked, but we kind of skipped that and went straight to best friends, or maybe more.
I still remember the exact feeling I had when I first fell in love with him. It’s a little weird to think there was a specific moment, but it literally hit like a ton of bricks (how I love my cliches). To make a long story short: we were at my best friend’s birthday party, and he had hurt himself, so when everyone else went outside to play football, he played video games. And I sat with him, just there, wanting to be as close to him as I could. I never played the games; I just watched him. He was glowing. He wasn’t perfect, but he was truly extraordinary. I wanted to feel his presence; his heat radiating off his body, keeping me warm.
I wonder what he remembers from that day, because I know that he felt what I felt that day, too.
I wonder what he remembers from that day, because I know that he felt what I felt that day, too.
I don’t want to go into details about the rest.
And to think this got set off by just a “Sure.”
All it takes is a phone call to make your heart feel heavy. When you’re watching somebody you’re actually coming to really care about struggle with a nervous breakdown and seeing them lose themselves in pills… it’s incredibly hard and more than one part of me just wants to say fuck it, this is too deep. But it’s just not in me to do that no matter what the cost. But having to choose between what kind of help you can give this person, in the capacity of giving them a place to stay that isn’t a fit place to raise a child or maybe, just maybe putting them away in a hospital for a little while, and yet depriving a kid of their mum AND dad at the same time… what kind of choices are these? How could anyone make a choice like that?
Confession No. 26514
I can't let myself think of all the memories we share. It's just too painful for me to deal with.
This Saturday can go three ways:
A) GO TO THE CLUB ALONE — Pros: I know for sure some classmates of mine will be there, loud music, drinking, and dancing. Cons: Possibly high risk of just being bored in the side of a club, since my close friends aren’t there.
B) STAY HOME — Pros: Jorma, Simon, and Tilmann are sleeping over, movie marathon, I don’t need to dress up, probable Skype sessions. Cons: I’ll have to do the movie marathon alone, another weekend staying at home, I stayed home last weekend, I wanna go out!!!
C) TAKE A TRAIN TO THE CITY — Pros: Christmas markets, at least i’m not home, shopping!!! Cons: Reaaaally crowded stores, I need someone to take me around the city (and no one is free today), high probability of missing my train and getting lost, AND IT’S FUCKING COLD OUTSIDE.
THE CHOICE IS YOURS. NOW TELL ME. A, B, OR C?
B) STAY HOME — Pros: Jorma, Simon, and Tilmann are sleeping over, movie marathon, I don’t need to dress up, probable Skype sessions. Cons: I’ll have to do the movie marathon alone, another weekend staying at home, I stayed home last weekend, I wanna go out!!!
C) TAKE A TRAIN TO THE CITY — Pros: Christmas markets, at least i’m not home, shopping!!! Cons: Reaaaally crowded stores, I need someone to take me around the city (and no one is free today), high probability of missing my train and getting lost, AND IT’S FUCKING COLD OUTSIDE.
THE CHOICE IS YOURS. NOW TELL ME. A, B, OR C?
So I realised I haven't looked outside yet.
And when I did… surprise, surprise! SNOW AGAIN.
So I ran outside barefoot and in my Ben and Jerry’s pajamas and made a snowball.
But it was too cold on my hands so I dropped it
Then Jorma ran out barefoot too and made another snowball.
And threw it at my face.
But I dodged it….into my hair.
So now there’s ice slowly melting on my scalp.
Damn it.
So I ran outside barefoot and in my Ben and Jerry’s pajamas and made a snowball.
But it was too cold on my hands so I dropped it
Then Jorma ran out barefoot too and made another snowball.
And threw it at my face.
But I dodged it….into my hair.
So now there’s ice slowly melting on my scalp.
Damn it.
Favourite bands...?
- VersaEmerge
- Pierce The Veil
- Fall Out Boy
- Paramore
- You Me At Six
- Forever the Sickest Kids
- The Maine
- Blink 182
- My Chemical Romance
18th July 2011 is the day I won’t go see Blink-182.
I'M SO SAD.
Hopefully the tickets will be in such high demand they will add new dates. WOO.
Nirvana - Pennyroyal Tea
I remember sitting in front of this when it aired on MTV, being hypnotized.
HOLY SHIT, SNOWWWWWW!!!!!
But it’s actually really lame snow that just falls then melts on the ground (or your fucking face) and it’s shit cold.
HORRIBLE BIKING WEATHER!
I had to take a detour through the city to buy earmuffs because I thought my ears would literally fall off
but I can’t wait for legit white ice snowman snowball snow.
<3
HORRIBLE BIKING WEATHER!
I had to take a detour through the city to buy earmuffs because I thought my ears would literally fall off
but I can’t wait for legit white ice snowman snowball snow.
<3
I’m tired of people.
When someone new walks into my life, I try to convince myself that they’re different but they turn out to be just like the rest of them. Breaking every fucking promise. Replacing me with someone better. Talking shit behind my back. Falling for those bullshit lines that make me think that I can actually trust them. Using me to get what they want. Then when they finally have it, they just leave me hanging until they need something again. They treat me like complete shit yet I would practically take a bullet for them in a heartbeat. Then when they realize how much they screwed up, they apologize and I forgive them. Sooner or later, the cycle repeats itself over and over again.
I just want to meet someone I can open up to without having to think twice about it. Someone that is capable of knocking down all the walls I put up since blocking people out is starting to become a natural habit of mine. And someone that appreciates me while they still have me. Yeah, it would be nice to meet someone like that for a change. Forever alone.
I just want to meet someone I can open up to without having to think twice about it. Someone that is capable of knocking down all the walls I put up since blocking people out is starting to become a natural habit of mine. And someone that appreciates me while they still have me. Yeah, it would be nice to meet someone like that for a change. Forever alone.
Another Heart Calls - The All-American Rejects
Do you remember when we didn’t care?
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there
Do you remember you at all?
Another heart calls
I remember when we stole the night
We’d lie awake dreaming til the sun would wash the sky
Just as soon as I see you, didn’t I, didn’t I tell you?
As deep as I need you, you wanna leave it all
I’m sorry
(So what?)
You don’t think I’ve said enough? I’m sorry!
(I don’t care… you were never there)
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there
Do you remember you at all?
Another heart calls
I remember when we stole the night
We’d lie awake dreaming til the sun would wash the sky
Just as soon as I see you, didn’t I, didn’t I tell you?
As deep as I need you, you wanna leave it all
I’m sorry
(So what?)
You don’t think I’ve said enough? I’m sorry!
(I don’t care… you were never there)
Dear You,
Remember our best kept secret? That rooftop in Brooklyn we snook up to in order to see the perfect view of the New York City skyline. Up there it was only me, you, and the beautiful city lights. We talked for hours on end about films that inspired us, books that changed us, our passions that motivated us, and we shared our deepest secrets that we’ve never told anyone else before. On those few nights we built a bridge between us. It was an everlasting connection between two lost souls who were drowning inside. A place that will forever be me and you.
Love,
Me
Love,
Me
Finished Jorma’s speakers!
Concept took forever, actual drawing took about 4 hours? Doodles include: Green Day heart grenade, four skulls, two different eyes, jack skellington, “Jorma”, 2 giant mushrooms, and lots of drippy stuff.
Fun to make, but i’m all out of markers now.
What do you think?
What exactly are you waiting for?
“Let’s not rush into things”. That was the idea I thought would be best. I remember sitting on your bed, watching you play your guitar and sing Oasis songs to me thinking, how am I not supposed to fall for this guy? You made me feel so alive.
It was June 6th at a friend’s house, we had been seeing each other for a few months now. You twisted the cap off your Magic Hat #9 and looked at it funny, then you put the cap in your pocket. I asked what you were doing and you told me that you’d tell me later.
Later that night in your bed you pulled the cap out of your pocket and said, “Remember when I told you I had tell you something later? Well, I normally don’t believe in fate or anything like that but I thought this was kind of strange.” You looked down at the bottle cap. “I’ve been waiting for the right time to ask you this, and after reading this I feel like this is the right time to ask you… Will you be my girlfriend?”
AND I MESSED UP WITH THIS GUY.
It was June 6th at a friend’s house, we had been seeing each other for a few months now. You twisted the cap off your Magic Hat #9 and looked at it funny, then you put the cap in your pocket. I asked what you were doing and you told me that you’d tell me later.
Later that night in your bed you pulled the cap out of your pocket and said, “Remember when I told you I had tell you something later? Well, I normally don’t believe in fate or anything like that but I thought this was kind of strange.” You looked down at the bottle cap. “I’ve been waiting for the right time to ask you this, and after reading this I feel like this is the right time to ask you… Will you be my girlfriend?”
AND I MESSED UP WITH THIS GUY.
Holy Santa Claus shit!
I think I found one Dave Matthews Band song I don’t actually despise.
“Crash” actually sort of fits my mood atm.
“Crash” actually sort of fits my mood atm.
I did not realise how much I missed the U.K. until I was reminded of it by British hating Germans.
I hate the U.K. but at the same time I really like it.
Some of my tattoos.
Right side, key (for the bluebird that wants to get out).
Left side, anchor (for when I leave and when I stay).
Best gameplay?
Umm. That’s kind of… hard to qualify? I mean it’s really objective you know. Fuck. I could name tons of games here that I had that were awesome to play. Guess I’ll just go with Grand Theft Auto Vice City, although there’s so many others.
I guess I just like saying fuck the missions, let’s go beat up some hookers and steal cars.
I guess I just like saying fuck the missions, let’s go beat up some hookers and steal cars.
I am aware of the fact that this makes me sound well sad, but I love Children In Need. There is never a year in which I don’t watch it, fair enough I don’t watch all of it, because I am tired or whatever, but I will always make the effort to sit and watch, and donate.
Last year I donated about £10 or something, every little helps.
I remember having to rush home last year, so that I wouldn’t miss the start of the Children In Need show, there had been a car crash on my bus route home, so I walked home so that I would make it in time.
Today was awesome being Pebbles from Peter Pan for fancy dress at university, and buying Pudsey cupcakes.
Last year I donated about £10 or something, every little helps.
I remember having to rush home last year, so that I wouldn’t miss the start of the Children In Need show, there had been a car crash on my bus route home, so I walked home so that I would make it in time.
Today was awesome being Pebbles from Peter Pan for fancy dress at university, and buying Pudsey cupcakes.
So I have no plans at all for this weekend,
but I guess the universe had different plans for me, because a beautiful opportunity has presented itself.
Jorma’s going to let me paint his horribly ugly “personalised” speakers.
Technically, i’ll just be drawing on it with a black marker, because the only paint I brought with me from the U.K. is water colours and that won’t work to well here, obviously.
I already started with some stuff.
I’ll be posting the progress and final output here!
Y U TRY SO HARD, DUDE.
I ISN’T INTERESTED, LOLZ.
Seriously, if I have to flat out reject you i'm going to kill myself.
Seriously, if I have to flat out reject you i'm going to kill myself.
A Little Bit of a Love Rant
I think of love the same way I think of Year 10. I miss that year like hell, it was so simple; so perfect. Sometimes, I wish I could just crawl into the comfort of it again, and shield myself from the troubles of university. But I know in my heart that moving on and gaining new experiences is far more important. That’s how guys are, ya know? Or girls, if that's your preference. You look back on them, and you think, “Damn that was awesome. I miss that. I really fucking miss that.” But would you really just want to stay in the safety of it all over again? Would you want to relive those months or years? No, I don’t think so. My best friend has a new boyfriend, his name is Robert. He’s fantastic, everything even I would want in a guy, and she knows how lucky she is. She is falling fast and hard. But two years ago, her boyfriend of nearly 10 months cheated on her during the New Year holidays. His name was T.J., and he shattered her heart into pieces.
His apologies were sincere. He called her constantly, walked to her house every day, and tried desperately to make it up to her. She was happy…but that cloud was still there. In the end, they made a rough decision. Sitting down, they looked each other in the eyes, eyes they knew so well, and realised something. They had to let go. T.J. didn’t want the same fate as his brother: blowing off friends and experiences for the girlfriend he was so hopelessly in love with. His words were, “I love you too much, Hannah. I know we will end up just like them. And I don’t want that for us.” So in a way, they loved each other enough to let go.
But like always, you still cling, and you cling hard. Hannah is happy, more than happy; T.J. is not. His girlfriend is great, but his longing for Hannah bores deeper into him each day. He regrets not his decision to let her go, but his first decision: the one that led to the second. He cheated. Yes, he cheated, but that doesn’t mean he didn’t love.
She talked to him yesterday, finally. She told him that she thought things over, and that she would always feel for him, but Robert was too important to her. She said that if fate had it for them, then they would work things out later. And she believes that.
So fate. Love. I’m not sure if I could put my belief into fate. I’ve loved the same guy for 9 months, and he has broken my heart more than once. It’s one of those pathetic things really. He’s just a friend, and to him, I am just this girl. But to me he is more than that. He’s an equal…that’s what I think we are looking for, not just in a relationship, but in a friendship as well. Someone who you feel is superior to you. “When you find someone you don’t think you deserve, you better try really fucking hard to make them yours.” My brother said that to me once, and ya know, he has a point. If your standards are where they should be, not any guy on the street will be good enough. And I hope you are shallow enough to base this off of looks: to think you are ugly, and that you don’t deserve the gorgeous boy you just laid eyes on.
It’s deeper. This guy…he is different. He is smart, and mature, and he has the same grip on life that I do…or so I thought. Recently though, he fucked up pretty bad. His reasons are beyond me, and I don’t think I can understand this one. And he can’t understand how bothered I am by it, and explaining just gets me nowhere. I left class today and felt so sick about it. But you know? That’s life.
Ups and downs. I’m just really hoping that somehow I can find someone like him again; someone who sees me and goes, “Holy fuck.” That’s what we all need. Someone who gets weak at the knees, who sits by their phone all day craving your call or text. Someone who can’t get you out of their head, someone who cares for you beyond the normal care; they care for your happiness, your success, your well being. Someone who would take a bullet for you. For the people that have found it, congrats. You are so, so lucky. For the people that have their hearts broken…everyone will get there. Even those who I just called lucky. And it’s not because love sucks. No, people suck. We do. Every last goddamn one of us has human flaws, errors in our character that lead us down pretty shitty paths. You’re heart is broken? Just wait, soon you will break a heart. Soon you will kiss some random dude at a party, soon you will find yourself growing annoyed with your partner…falling out of love. Because that’s the point. We fall in love…then we fall out of love. Only to fall in love again. That’s what you need to reach the point where you really find the right one. All the others before are lessons…everyone is a lesson. You will know when you snag the final partner when he or she is a lover, a parent, a brother, and a child all in one. You have to care for them in every aspect imaginable: you must respect them like a parent, and know that they are just looking for the best for you. You must protect them like a sibling, and know that sometimes yeah…they are going to annoy the shit out of you but at the end of the day, they are still going to be under the same roof, and you are still going to love them. Like a child…that all encompassing love that makes you want to succeed for them…that makes you want to be the best you can be. And like a lover…someone that you can fuck the hell out of.
Honestly. Everyone just wants to be wanted.
His apologies were sincere. He called her constantly, walked to her house every day, and tried desperately to make it up to her. She was happy…but that cloud was still there. In the end, they made a rough decision. Sitting down, they looked each other in the eyes, eyes they knew so well, and realised something. They had to let go. T.J. didn’t want the same fate as his brother: blowing off friends and experiences for the girlfriend he was so hopelessly in love with. His words were, “I love you too much, Hannah. I know we will end up just like them. And I don’t want that for us.” So in a way, they loved each other enough to let go.
But like always, you still cling, and you cling hard. Hannah is happy, more than happy; T.J. is not. His girlfriend is great, but his longing for Hannah bores deeper into him each day. He regrets not his decision to let her go, but his first decision: the one that led to the second. He cheated. Yes, he cheated, but that doesn’t mean he didn’t love.
She talked to him yesterday, finally. She told him that she thought things over, and that she would always feel for him, but Robert was too important to her. She said that if fate had it for them, then they would work things out later. And she believes that.
So fate. Love. I’m not sure if I could put my belief into fate. I’ve loved the same guy for 9 months, and he has broken my heart more than once. It’s one of those pathetic things really. He’s just a friend, and to him, I am just this girl. But to me he is more than that. He’s an equal…that’s what I think we are looking for, not just in a relationship, but in a friendship as well. Someone who you feel is superior to you. “When you find someone you don’t think you deserve, you better try really fucking hard to make them yours.” My brother said that to me once, and ya know, he has a point. If your standards are where they should be, not any guy on the street will be good enough. And I hope you are shallow enough to base this off of looks: to think you are ugly, and that you don’t deserve the gorgeous boy you just laid eyes on.
It’s deeper. This guy…he is different. He is smart, and mature, and he has the same grip on life that I do…or so I thought. Recently though, he fucked up pretty bad. His reasons are beyond me, and I don’t think I can understand this one. And he can’t understand how bothered I am by it, and explaining just gets me nowhere. I left class today and felt so sick about it. But you know? That’s life.
Ups and downs. I’m just really hoping that somehow I can find someone like him again; someone who sees me and goes, “Holy fuck.” That’s what we all need. Someone who gets weak at the knees, who sits by their phone all day craving your call or text. Someone who can’t get you out of their head, someone who cares for you beyond the normal care; they care for your happiness, your success, your well being. Someone who would take a bullet for you. For the people that have found it, congrats. You are so, so lucky. For the people that have their hearts broken…everyone will get there. Even those who I just called lucky. And it’s not because love sucks. No, people suck. We do. Every last goddamn one of us has human flaws, errors in our character that lead us down pretty shitty paths. You’re heart is broken? Just wait, soon you will break a heart. Soon you will kiss some random dude at a party, soon you will find yourself growing annoyed with your partner…falling out of love. Because that’s the point. We fall in love…then we fall out of love. Only to fall in love again. That’s what you need to reach the point where you really find the right one. All the others before are lessons…everyone is a lesson. You will know when you snag the final partner when he or she is a lover, a parent, a brother, and a child all in one. You have to care for them in every aspect imaginable: you must respect them like a parent, and know that they are just looking for the best for you. You must protect them like a sibling, and know that sometimes yeah…they are going to annoy the shit out of you but at the end of the day, they are still going to be under the same roof, and you are still going to love them. Like a child…that all encompassing love that makes you want to succeed for them…that makes you want to be the best you can be. And like a lover…someone that you can fuck the hell out of.
Honestly. Everyone just wants to be wanted.
Whoever said:
“You don’t know what you have until it’s gone” is sorta wrong, because you know exactly what you have when you have it. You just don’t know how much you need it until you can’t have it anymore.
I learnt this today:
Every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics:
You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements - the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution and for life - weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way for them to get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode.
So, forget Jesus.
The stars died so that you could be here today.
You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements - the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution and for life - weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way for them to get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode.
So, forget Jesus.
The stars died so that you could be here today.
I just finished a whole season of Peach Girl.
I don’t normally watch Anime, but I can’t deny that Peach Girl is a huge guilty pleasure of mine.
Okayasu + Momo = 4ever ♥
Okayasu + Momo = 4ever ♥
FIVE PEARLS OF WISDOM TO REMEMBER:
1. Money can’t buy happiness but...
somehow, it’s more comfortable to cry in a BMW than on a bicycle…
2. Forgive your enemy, but...
remember the bastard’s name.
3. Help a man when he is trouble & he will remember you,
when he is in trouble again.
4. Many people are alive only because...
it’s illegal to shoot them.
5. Alcohol does not solve any problem, but then,
neither does milk.
APPEARANCE
[ ] I am shorter than 5’4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles.
FAMILY
[ ] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I want to adopt someday.
[ ] I’ve had children.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.
SCHOOL/WORK[x] I’m in school.
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I’ve missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I’ve been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I’ve stolen something from my job.
[ ] I’ve been fired.
EMBARASSMENT[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[ ] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[ ] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I’ve had my trousers rip in public.
HEALTH
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I’ve gotten stitches.
[ ] I’ve broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.
[ ] I have/had asthma.
TRAVELING
[ ] I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[x] I’ve been to Canada.
[x] I’ve been to Mexico.
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[x] I’ve been to Japan.
[ ] I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I’ve been to Europe.
[ ] I’ve been to Africa.
EXPERIENCES
[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[x] I’ve gone skinny dipping.
[x] I’ve played spin the bottle.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[x] I’ve been Skiing
[x] I’ve been in a play.
[ ] I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I’ve played chicken.
[ ] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[x] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.
RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I’m single
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back more than once.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them and didn’t get a clear response.
[ ] I’ve felt rejected even if I wasn’t.
[x] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
HONESTY
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[ ] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I’ve cheated on a test.
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school.
BAD TIMES[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[x]I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I shut others out when I’m depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[ ] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I’m addicted to self harm.
[ ] I’ve woken up crying.
DEATH
[ ] I’m afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I’ve seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
MATERIALISM
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
RANDOM
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ringtone.
[ ] I obsess over grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
[x] I can cook.
[x] My favorite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red, black or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online a lot, even as an away message.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a roach in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[x] I’m good at remembering names
[x] I’m good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
[ ] I am shorter than 5’4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles.
FAMILY
[ ] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I want to adopt someday.
[ ] I’ve had children.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.
SCHOOL/WORK[x] I’m in school.
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I’ve missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I’ve been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I’ve stolen something from my job.
[ ] I’ve been fired.
EMBARASSMENT[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[ ] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[ ] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I’ve had my trousers rip in public.
HEALTH
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I’ve gotten stitches.
[ ] I’ve broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.
[ ] I have/had asthma.
TRAVELING
[ ] I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[x] I’ve been to Canada.
[x] I’ve been to Mexico.
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[x] I’ve been to Japan.
[ ] I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I’ve been to Europe.
[ ] I’ve been to Africa.
EXPERIENCES
[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[x] I’ve gone skinny dipping.
[x] I’ve played spin the bottle.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[x] I’ve been Skiing
[x] I’ve been in a play.
[ ] I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I’ve played chicken.
[ ] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[x] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.
RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I’m single
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back more than once.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them and didn’t get a clear response.
[ ] I’ve felt rejected even if I wasn’t.
[x] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
HONESTY
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[ ] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I’ve cheated on a test.
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school.
BAD TIMES[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[x]I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I shut others out when I’m depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[ ] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I’m addicted to self harm.
[ ] I’ve woken up crying.
DEATH
[ ] I’m afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I’ve seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
MATERIALISM
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
RANDOM
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ringtone.
[ ] I obsess over grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
[x] I can cook.
[x] My favorite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red, black or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online a lot, even as an away message.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a roach in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[x] I’m good at remembering names
[x] I’m good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
I figured out what i’ll do for a part-time job and extra money while in San Fran.
I’ll be a bartender!!!
- $150-$300 worth of tips a day
- Bartending school lasts only 1-2 weeks (longer if you like)
- 21-year olds in CA
Out of my entirely tiny German town, I found the only sushi bar and the only place where they also sell MANGO JUICE. Yes, I said it. MANGO JUICE. MADE FROM MANGOES. I was about to cry from happiness.
Plus, I introduced myself to the owners of the sushi bar. They’re from Korea. I was about to say something in Korean, but I realised most of the Korean I know are curse words.
I think this proves how awesome I am as am.
Fuck yeah.
Plus, I introduced myself to the owners of the sushi bar. They’re from Korea. I was about to say something in Korean, but I realised most of the Korean I know are curse words.
I think this proves how awesome I am as am.
Fuck yeah.
When we realised that we'll be seeing each other in a little over a month...
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